I definitely love to drink, but sometimes I find myself growing bored with drinking beer. I like to drink wine here and there and I think it would be great to be a part of the wine of the month club. I never want to just randomly try different wines for fear that I will hate it and wish I had spent my money on something else. When you are a part of goldmedia’s wine of the month club they deliver two outstanding wines to your door twice a month. Sounds like a great deal to me!

I have seen lots of commercials for hydroxycut. I wonder if that stuff even works? I have no idea because I never really believe that there is some sort of magic pill that will make you skinny. If there was everyone would be taking it and I doubt America would be full of so many overweight people. Unless you’re one of those big and beautiful people, you know the ones who are proud to be huge and act like they are something special because they have more to love. Not saying it’s wrong to feel that way, or that it’s wrong to be fat… but I’m sure you get what I’m saying.

As embarassing as it is, I have definitely had my fair share of run-ins with a commercial collection agency. While I am doing sooo much better (wouldn’t think of getting myself into a situation like this these days!) I think the problem was just that I really didn’t care – nor did I even think about the consequences of writing bad checks. I wrote a lot of bad checks when I was young, and most of the time on purpose. I know people who still do this, but there are plenty of other reasons why they’re obviously not getting their life together anytime soon.

Poor guy.

I’ve never been to Branson Missouri before. There are a lot of places that I’ve never been that I need to go. I wish I could win the lottery, quit my job… and just have fun by traveling and spending money. If only life could be that easy! I don’t think I’d ever win the lottery though, but I guess it increases the odds if I actually PLAY, but honestly I can see myself wasting a bunch of money trying to play a game that I will never win.

I got our local newspaper in the mail yesterday and it had a nice thick section of advertisements for local stores like Big Lots! and Walmart. It also had one for Lowe’s… I normally shop at Home Depot for my home improvement needs because I have a nice line of credit with them, but the Lowe’s ad had a bunch of flowers/trees/bushes that I could plant right now and have bloom by Spring.

I feel like getting dressed and rushing off to the store to see what I can find. I’ve been wanting to plant and make the yard nice, but everyone is saying to wait until Spring. I think that may just be because nobody wants to help me right now.. LOL. Oh screw ‘em!! I’ll do it all by myself.

Something I really seemed to have mastered is tuning things out. I think this comes from a few different things:

1. Ignoring my grandmother, she bitched so much it could make your ears bleed.
2. I worked at a daycare for a little over three years. Quite a few people quit in the time that I worked there, yet no matter who the school hired the children were still wild. Maybe it was me?
3. In between working at the day care I worked for a nonprofit organization that gave mentally handicapped adults the chance to live a life “on their own.” On top of that, I worked there with Amanda. I’m not going to point out who was harder to ignore, I’d hate to hurt Amanda’s feelings.
4. My boyfriend talks a whole lot.

A lot of the time I can’t even sit through a movie. I accidentally stop paying attention. It’s funny though, Paul can be across the house when his phone rings, and I hear every word.

The past few days have been rough, but when it boils down to it today I am alive and well and this is what is important.

I’ve been bowling a lot and I am actually getting pretty good at it. I think I’ve managed to see past the fact that the bowling alley we go to was quite possibly my grandmother’s favorite place to be when s he still walked the earth. But she’s dead now, and again, as mean and cold as it is, that is also what is important.

Cause I’m sure if she were the one who were alive and well, I on the otherhand would be dead. Maybe I don’t know, I probably would have driven my car off a cliff or something really dramatic.